Back in the Saddle…

Went for a trail ride today.  I haven’t ridden off road in… a while.  I’m not ashamed… just disappointed in myself.  I had forgotten how much I enjoy mountain biking.  I got my ass kicked 🙂  But I had fun.  I’m already looking forward to the next ride.

Recently, it has been brought to my attention that health can fail no matter what I do about it.  A friend of mine had a stroke a few weeks back.  He’s not even 50 yet, and he appeared to be in good health.  The “numbers”, if you will, just lined up against him and it happened.  So, like I said, I’m pretty aware of the fact that some things are just out of our control whether it’s a genetic thing, disease thing or something that medical technology just can’t pick up and get fixed without in-depth analysis.

That does NOT mean, however, I have a reason to just say, “f*ck it.” and let myself go.  It was explained to me by the man in the hospital bed that while control might be an illusion in some cases, taking action to improve my fitness and health and stay better maintained CAN have a significant influence on the dice of my life when they are rolled.  I was also told to keep cycling/biking.  Today, I decided to follow that order.  It was a good thing.

Here’s to hoping for his recovery, and a thanks for reminding me to get off my ass.

Just Passing By…

I wanted to make sure I didn’t go TOO long without a post…

I can’t say with any definitive reason why I have not been writing and/or posting.  I just haven’t been motivated, and I guess, I’ve been a little blocked.  I’m trying to sort it out, but the things that normally flash into that abyss I call my brain just aren’t flashing lately.  I come home from work “tired”.  I’m just not sure what it is yet, that’s keeping me shut down.  I’ll eventually figure it out, though.  I’m a problem solver.  It’s what I do. 🙂

Even my racing hobby with iRacing has slipped some.  I think similar illusive reasons are the culprit.  There is also concern over a friend who shares the racing thing with me.  He’s not even 50 yet and he is in the hospital fighting to recover from a stroke.  There are a lot of people wishing and praying for him.  I, personally, believe he’ll pull through with time, but I will not deny the shock I’ve experienced since finding out about this.  I guess it has to do with it being someone that is close to the same age and it’s someone that seemed healthy, active and well… just a good guy.  Crazy.

Like I said… just passing by.

Not gone, just lurking in the shadows at the moment…

Rework or Rebuild?

MadKeyboarding

As you may have noticed, I took down Mind the Shadows.  I felt compelled to pull it and… well… decide, I guess, what to do with it.

The truth is that I think it kind of got away from me.  I was more concerned about cranking out words and “action” than with understanding what I wanted for my characters – not to mention, among other things, what my characters wanted for themselves.

It started feeling like doing a job versus just being a story I wanted to tell and being something fun to do.  So, as you ALSO may have noticed, I got sloppy when I did produce words, AND I started producing less often.

I’m at a crossroads for either reworking (my term for doing some editing) the existing story or rebuilding it.  I’ll likely keep the general story line that I started, but I’m not sure if I’ll pare it down to being part of Marek’s background, or if I’ll rework and streamline it, then continue on from there.

I would like to get a bit more “future history” in there for a better description of the setting.  I felt like that was lacking.

I’m still learning how to do all this, so I don’t know what you should expect.

I wouldn’t mind some advice.

I did get one great piece of advice. It was part of what prompted me to start down this path for Mind the Shadows.  Dirty SciFi Buddha posted one of his musings that really got my attention.  Here is the link to the post.  He’s right, too.  I was cranking out “stuff”, but I wasn’t paying attention to my characters.  I wasn’t letting them become the living breathing people they need to be.

Anyway, let me know your thoughts about Mind the Shadows.  Let me know your thoughts about anything.  As always thanks for your comments and feedback.

Bloggity, Blog, Blog

I am determined not to let this blog sit too idle.  Sorry to those that might actually be interested in reading this for not posting more often.

Let’s just say that I’ve been “cruising” through life since my last post.  It’s a habit of mine to just coast for a bit after the holidays.  I don’t know that it’s a good habit, but…  I don’t know that it’s a bad habit, either.  I’m not always “productive”. And while a feel some guilt – sometimes – for not being productive (outside of going to work daily), I don’t feel that guilty.  Yes, time flies and all that, but I don’t consider it a bad thing to just exist now and then.

I guess I haven’t been too idle, though.  My sim racing hobby has been a bit more in my focus since the holidays.  I joined the Pacific Majors league again this year.  It’s a pretty cool league.  It’s not without its drama and bullsh!t, but I enjoy it.  We get to run in different types of races with different types of cars, so it is quite interesting having to learn the different race disciplines.

This next Sunday (2/26/17) I get to race in the Pacific Majors’ version of the Daytona 500.  I’m looking forward to it.  For some reason, I really like the restrictor plate racing, especially since I’ve had the opportunity to participate in it rather than just watching it on TV.  It’s very intense trying to keep the car under control in a group of cars going ~200mph and only being inches apart.  So much concentration is required… very intense 😀

I’ve been on “TV”, too… well YouTube.  The Pac Majors league has the top 2 splits of these races streamed/broadcasted live by professional streamers.  It’s kind of cool being able to go back and watch the race you were just in, and possibly seeing yourself (well, your car) and having your name mentioned.  I just wish my name was mentioned more often for being fast and making it to the front versus getting into wrecks 😳  That’s something I need to work on a bit :mrgreen:  Come watch a stream anyway, especially if you like auto racing.  I’ll try to post the different YouTube channels where the streams will be.

Other than that… well… like I said, I’ve just been moseying through life since the first of the year.  I think I’ll be getting more active on here again, though.  It might be more about my sim racing stuff, but it will be something.

As always, let me know what you think.  Ask me questions.  Ask me to write about something.  This blog does not have to be a one-way thing.  I would very much enjoy hearing back from readers.

Later 😉

Moving into ’17

The holidays were good to me.  I got to visit family and hang out with my best friend.  I had a lot of fun.  And again, there was minimal drama like at Thanksgiving.  I can say that I am as grateful for that as the rest.  It was a very enjoyable break.

I’ve gotten some laughs from the many 2016 memes citing how fu€kt up 2016 was.  I mean what can you do but laugh… or go stark raving mad like much of society does over some of the stupidest shit.  I find myself shaking my head more and more often…

Don’t get me wrong.  2016 had some negative events like the deaths of some well-known folks.  I guess I’m at the age where the ones dying are people with whom I have some sort of connection.  These were people that were known and popular in my time.  I suppose that will be the case more and more as I get older.  Still, even though it was a shame to lose some of these folks (pretty good artists and actors), I will accept that it was their time.  Maybe their passing will incite some positive changes in our world.

Then there was the election here in the U.S. of A.  What a freakin’ circus.  And I am still trying to comprehend the level of shitheadedness (I made this one up <grin>) that people have shown over this fiasco.  I’m not here to get political.  I just want to point out the complete lack of maturity and abundance of stupidity that surfaced during the campaign and election.

My only thoughts on Trump being president are: 1. I expect some changes. 2. I hope some of those changes are for the better.  Putting that guy in office is definitely a curve-ball.  I am considering this another one of those 2016 winds of change.

So, 2017 is here.  It sure ain’t like the Back to the Future movies described (that was 2015, by the way).  We don’t have hover cars and controlled weather.  I haven’t seen a Mr. Fusion on a shelf at Target.  I do sometimes think, though, if the world was less focused on money and beating each other over the head for our differences, and more focused on advancing technology and solving problems like pollution, hunger and diseases, we might actually have stuff like that by now – or, at least, be much closer.  Maybe all the 2016 craziness will be a catalyst for bigger better things in ’17.

Happy New Year?

WTF? Author? NOT!!! :-P

MadKeyboardingSo, I just re-read

the chapter 8 post for Mind the Shadows.

I’ve done better… way better.  I usually don’t make those kinds of mistakes in my writing.  Missing a word or two, grammar problems… wtf?  I know I’m amateur, but damn.  Even I should do better than that, especially if I’m going to “publish” what I write.  I have done better than that.  I need to do better than that.  Sorry to those that have read it.  I’ll definitely try to do better.

I think Mind the Shadows might need some changes… maybe an overhaul…  an enema? I’m not sure what specifically is missing, but I think I lost interest because of some sort of self-imposed “barrier” I could not figure out how to get past.  I know it’s first person, and describing what Marek is/was feeling and how he sees/saw things is a good thing.  BUT…  I’m wondering if I’ve written too much of that “good thing”.  I need some more action in it.

Please, tell me if you think I’m right.

I don’t think I’ll change from writing as Marek (1st person) just yet, but I might get a little more “shallow”(???).  I’ll try to create more action and story progression versus interaction and, what I think is, character development.  Remember… AMATEUR.  This is where I could use some help/feedback.  Ask questions.  Tell me it sucks, if you want, but tell me why you think it sucks.  I would actually appreciate that.

Tempus Fugit…

I just looked at the date of my last post.  I’m having a hard time wrapping my around the fact that it’s been that long… over a month.  I was trying not to let that happen… sorry.

I’m not sure why, exactly, I have let this blog thingy go cold.  I’ve got no good excuse.  I know I’ve been doing some other stuff, but not so much that I’ve HAD to neglect this.  I dunno <sigh>…

So, anyway…

Got to visit my daughter a couple of weeks ago.  It was good to see her.  She’s doing well.  College life seems to suit her.  It makes me proud.  Good going, kid.

I ran the 24 Hours of Le Mans last weekend.  Well… I ran 21 hours of it anyway, with Ridin’ Shotgun Motorsports on iRacing.  I had a lot of fun in spite of not being able to complete it.  We found a software bug, of all things.  One of my teammates had to pit for some repairs.  He gets in the pit box and the repair timer doesn’t start counting down.  The car won’t restart.  There was nothing we could do to get things going again, and we know that’s not how iRacing handles that.  Needless to say, we were disappointed, but we still had a ton of fun.  The endurance races are something in my hobby I probably enjoy the most.  I can’t wait until the Daytona 24 🙂

I haven’t been writing at all.  So, it isn’t just the blog that I’ve neglected.  I guess I got a little burnt? I really don’t know.  I do know that I would sit down in here, and it just wouldn’t happen.  I would get focused on something else.  In some cases, I never even came into my office.  I was spending time with the wife, watching TV and just doing other shit.

Anyway, I’ll cut it off here.  I’ll end things with a sorry for leaving ya hanging (if you were actually).  I think I’m getting some motivation to start being a terror to the English language again… you’ve been warned 😛