My Muse… Fickle Bastard

 

So, how the hell do you train your muse?  I’ve been suffering from writer’s block, lack of motivation, no inspiration… call it whatever.  It sucks.

Can you train your muse?  I’m not sure.  I thought it might have been possible.  But now I just don’t know.

My desire to write seems to be in my daily batch of wants and needs, but the fuel I need to do it, lately, is lacking at best – even non-existent at times.

I can’t deny having some recent distractions, but I don’t think they are the cause any kind of major block.  It’s like my muse just took a giant dump and bailed  :-/

Trying to figure it out…

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Net Neutrality…

Is everybody aware of this upcoming vote about the Net Neutrality laws?  I hope so.  This is some scary stuff.  Do you know what Net Neutrality is?  In a nutshell, it means that the internet service provider (ISP) that you pay to have internet access is required by law to let you use the bandwidth you pay for in any way you see fit.  If you have 50-megabit bandwidth, with the current laws in place, you can use that 50 megabits to access whatever content you want – YouTube, Netflix, Facebook… porn… whatever.

If these laws get repealed, your ISP will now get to decide how much, if any, of that bandwidth you’re paying for you get to use for certain things.  Again, in a nutshell, it means that your ISP can limit access to certain content as they see fit.  For example, the ISP could decide not to allow enough bandwidth to stream HD Netflix, or not stream it at all.  Then it’s likely that they will be happy to start charging you more to get better access to certain content, AND they will be legal to do this.  No more unrestricted access.

Watch the video I’ve linked below. It’s got a ton of good information.  It’s worth watching for good information.  Finally, voice your opinion.  I hope you’re for keeping Net Neutrality.  I want to be able to use my internet bandwidth in any way I see fit, especially being able to blog here on WordPress.  I bet you do, too.

Net Neutrality Video Link

The Epic Retur… Who Am I Kidding?!?!?

A walk in the woods…

The wife and I decided to go hiking this morning – a good decision.  With the sweltering heat of Texas summers seemingly on the decline, we decided it was time for some outdoor activity.  We went to Rowlett Creek Preserve over near Garland.  It turned out to be a couple of hours of good fun.

I’ve ridden RCP a lot over the years.  It’s a great all-around mountain biking trail that has a little of everything for the off-road riding enthusiast.  It’s been a source of exercise and a ton of fun over the years since I started riding.  I didn’t realize, though, how different it is to walk the trail out there.  It’s a very different perspective.  We got to see things that you just don’t see when negotiating the twists and turns and various obstacles the trail offers when on a bike.  Seeing wildlife – mostly toads, frogs and birds – much more often and in a much closer proximity was interesting and fun.  Her and I used to love hiking the state parks of Missouri, and seeing the wildlife was one of the big reasons.

We’ll have to do this more often, especially now that the air temperature is more tolerable for a “northern” boy like me 😉

A pleasant surprise…

I’ve expressed my appreciation – probably not enough – for those that have chosen to follow my written ramblings on this page.  But today I got a follow that was kind of a surprise.  Since I haven’t been very active on here lately, I have no expectations of getting follows and/or seeing comments and the like when I’m not posting.  But Mr and Mrs NW saw fit to give me a follow today.  It was a surprise.  It was a very pleasant surprise.  It was kind of cool realizing that my page gets visits even when I’m not regularly updating it.  It was very cool that one of those visitors decided it was worth their time to follow my page.  Thanks.  You might have given me a bit of a boost in my motivation to start banging on the keyboard again.  I write for myself, but it sure is nice having an audience to entertain, too.  I’m a dungeon master at my core of creativity, so having “players” to present to is a good thing for me.  Again… thanks.

More to come.

Back in the Saddle…

Went for a trail ride today.  I haven’t ridden off road in… a while.  I’m not ashamed… just disappointed in myself.  I had forgotten how much I enjoy mountain biking.  I got my ass kicked 🙂  But I had fun.  I’m already looking forward to the next ride.

Recently, it has been brought to my attention that health can fail no matter what I do about it.  A friend of mine had a stroke a few weeks back.  He’s not even 50 yet, and he appeared to be in good health.  The “numbers”, if you will, just lined up against him and it happened.  So, like I said, I’m pretty aware of the fact that some things are just out of our control whether it’s a genetic thing, disease thing or something that medical technology just can’t pick up and get fixed without in-depth analysis.

That does NOT mean, however, I have a reason to just say, “f*ck it.” and let myself go.  It was explained to me by the man in the hospital bed that while control might be an illusion in some cases, taking action to improve my fitness and health and stay better maintained CAN have a significant influence on the dice of my life when they are rolled.  I was also told to keep cycling/biking.  Today, I decided to follow that order.  It was a good thing.

Here’s to hoping for his recovery, and a thanks for reminding me to get off my ass.

Just Passing By…

I wanted to make sure I didn’t go TOO long without a post…

I can’t say with any definitive reason why I have not been writing and/or posting.  I just haven’t been motivated, and I guess, I’ve been a little blocked.  I’m trying to sort it out, but the things that normally flash into that abyss I call my brain just aren’t flashing lately.  I come home from work “tired”.  I’m just not sure what it is yet, that’s keeping me shut down.  I’ll eventually figure it out, though.  I’m a problem solver.  It’s what I do. 🙂

Even my racing hobby with iRacing has slipped some.  I think similar illusive reasons are the culprit.  There is also concern over a friend who shares the racing thing with me.  He’s not even 50 yet and he is in the hospital fighting to recover from a stroke.  There are a lot of people wishing and praying for him.  I, personally, believe he’ll pull through with time, but I will not deny the shock I’ve experienced since finding out about this.  I guess it has to do with it being someone that is close to the same age and it’s someone that seemed healthy, active and well… just a good guy.  Crazy.

Like I said… just passing by.

Not gone, just lurking in the shadows at the moment…

Rework or Rebuild?

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As you may have noticed, I took down Mind the Shadows.  I felt compelled to pull it and… well… decide, I guess, what to do with it.

The truth is that I think it kind of got away from me.  I was more concerned about cranking out words and “action” than with understanding what I wanted for my characters – not to mention, among other things, what my characters wanted for themselves.

It started feeling like doing a job versus just being a story I wanted to tell and being something fun to do.  So, as you ALSO may have noticed, I got sloppy when I did produce words, AND I started producing less often.

I’m at a crossroads for either reworking (my term for doing some editing) the existing story or rebuilding it.  I’ll likely keep the general story line that I started, but I’m not sure if I’ll pare it down to being part of Marek’s background, or if I’ll rework and streamline it, then continue on from there.

I would like to get a bit more “future history” in there for a better description of the setting.  I felt like that was lacking.

I’m still learning how to do all this, so I don’t know what you should expect.

I wouldn’t mind some advice.

I did get one great piece of advice. It was part of what prompted me to start down this path for Mind the Shadows.  Dirty SciFi Buddha posted one of his musings that really got my attention.  Here is the link to the post.  He’s right, too.  I was cranking out “stuff”, but I wasn’t paying attention to my characters.  I wasn’t letting them become the living breathing people they need to be.

Anyway, let me know your thoughts about Mind the Shadows.  Let me know your thoughts about anything.  As always thanks for your comments and feedback.

Bloggity, Blog, Blog

I am determined not to let this blog sit too idle.  Sorry to those that might actually be interested in reading this for not posting more often.

Let’s just say that I’ve been “cruising” through life since my last post.  It’s a habit of mine to just coast for a bit after the holidays.  I don’t know that it’s a good habit, but…  I don’t know that it’s a bad habit, either.  I’m not always “productive”. And while a feel some guilt – sometimes – for not being productive (outside of going to work daily), I don’t feel that guilty.  Yes, time flies and all that, but I don’t consider it a bad thing to just exist now and then.

I guess I haven’t been too idle, though.  My sim racing hobby has been a bit more in my focus since the holidays.  I joined the Pacific Majors league again this year.  It’s a pretty cool league.  It’s not without its drama and bullsh!t, but I enjoy it.  We get to run in different types of races with different types of cars, so it is quite interesting having to learn the different race disciplines.

This next Sunday (2/26/17) I get to race in the Pacific Majors’ version of the Daytona 500.  I’m looking forward to it.  For some reason, I really like the restrictor plate racing, especially since I’ve had the opportunity to participate in it rather than just watching it on TV.  It’s very intense trying to keep the car under control in a group of cars going ~200mph and only being inches apart.  So much concentration is required… very intense 😀

I’ve been on “TV”, too… well YouTube.  The Pac Majors league has the top 2 splits of these races streamed/broadcasted live by professional streamers.  It’s kind of cool being able to go back and watch the race you were just in, and possibly seeing yourself (well, your car) and having your name mentioned.  I just wish my name was mentioned more often for being fast and making it to the front versus getting into wrecks 😳  That’s something I need to work on a bit :mrgreen:  Come watch a stream anyway, especially if you like auto racing.  I’ll try to post the different YouTube channels where the streams will be.

Other than that… well… like I said, I’ve just been moseying through life since the first of the year.  I think I’ll be getting more active on here again, though.  It might be more about my sim racing stuff, but it will be something.

As always, let me know what you think.  Ask me questions.  Ask me to write about something.  This blog does not have to be a one-way thing.  I would very much enjoy hearing back from readers.

Later 😉