A Response to DSFB, but I Liked its… Magic :-)

So, I was reading through a post by Dirty Sci-Fi Buddha (he posts good stuff).  He posited that science and magic are both equally wondrous and mysterious.  I completely agree, but a took it a bit further in a comment I posted to his thread.  When I got done reading it, I decided it was worth making my own post.  Yay, me? 😉

Science? Magic? A difference? When all in Reality that can be discovered, tested and verified is such, only the mind and will is left to affect Reality. Then it becomes a renewed matter of discovery, testing and verification, but now it’s on how the mind and will affects Reality. So, magic? Science? A difference?

Go back and read his post to help make sense of this.  Give DSFB a follow, too.  Thanks for the inspiration, ‘Buddha.

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Back in the Saddle…

Went for a trail ride today.  I haven’t ridden off road in… a while.  I’m not ashamed… just disappointed in myself.  I had forgotten how much I enjoy mountain biking.  I got my ass kicked 🙂  But I had fun.  I’m already looking forward to the next ride.

Recently, it has been brought to my attention that health can fail no matter what I do about it.  A friend of mine had a stroke a few weeks back.  He’s not even 50 yet, and he appeared to be in good health.  The “numbers”, if you will, just lined up against him and it happened.  So, like I said, I’m pretty aware of the fact that some things are just out of our control whether it’s a genetic thing, disease thing or something that medical technology just can’t pick up and get fixed without in-depth analysis.

That does NOT mean, however, I have a reason to just say, “f*ck it.” and let myself go.  It was explained to me by the man in the hospital bed that while control might be an illusion in some cases, taking action to improve my fitness and health and stay better maintained CAN have a significant influence on the dice of my life when they are rolled.  I was also told to keep cycling/biking.  Today, I decided to follow that order.  It was a good thing.

Here’s to hoping for his recovery, and a thanks for reminding me to get off my ass.

I Didn’t Let It Go…

I’m one of those folks that has a (bad) habit of hanging on to things far longer than I should.  I’ll look at something that I’ve had on a shelf or in a closet and know full well that I am likely never to need/use it. BUT… I just can’t bring myself to get rid of it.  What if I end up actually needing it?  Is it something I can replace if I ever want it again?  Is it really hurting anything by just staying where it’s at in case I need it?

The reality is that in more cases than not, I absolutely should get rid of some of the $hit I have on shelves and stuffed in closets.  In some cases – more recently, because I’m getting better about it – I have gotten rid of some stuff. (I still have a long way to go)  My only motivation, though, might have been just to have space for the next item that I want, but I have gotten rid of stuff that was ultimately serving only two functions, collecting dust and taking up space.

There have been a few things, though, that I have absolutely refused to part with, and I have kept them for years.  One category of items is books.  I don’t have a huge collection of books, but I have many.  Most are role-playing game books (D&D, etc.). Others are books from my favorite authors (Feist, Brooks, Zahn and others).  Some of these books I have not picked up in years, and we’re talking about some of these being 30+ years old. They’ve moved with me from place to place, and ended up on shelves in an area of the home that my wife has deemed acceptable.  I simply refuse to get rid of them.  Having them is a comfort, I suppose.  They contain great memories, especially the RPG books.  Great stories, read and wrought, have come from these books.  I am not likely to ever get rid of them.  It will be a burden my daughter will have to deal with when I am no longer able to live.

The other array of things I have kept over many years are the mental expulsions I have put onto paper – both cellulose and electronic.  This collection contains the results of musings, inspiration and/or motivation from many role-playing game campaigns and my less than stellar attempts at smithing words.  Like the books, this collection possesses memories of things from a major portion of my life.  I can remember great times sitting at the table with my players when I look at some of my old game notes.  I look at a poem or snippet of story idea and, love it or hate it, remember that writing is part of who I am, no matter how poorly I perform that act.

Well, hanging on to this stuff has helped inspire/motivate me a bit again.  I have been lacking in my endeavor to craft some yarns.  So hanging on to this stuff might have actually been worth it… to me, anyway.  I found half-drawn maps of my fantasy world the other night.  I have since spread them out on a table and started working on them again.  This inspired a post about Welandar – the kingdom in this world where my ideas are trying to manifest – here – and a story here that I am going to put in that world.  I’m hoping I’ll stick with it now that I’ve grown older… and maybe up a bit 😉

So, I guess the point I’m trying to make – if there is a point to this ramble – is that hanging on to certain things is a good thing. My advice, though, is to figure out what those things are and work on clearing out the rest.  It might just make room for more good stuff.  There is nothing wrong with hanging on to things that remind you of good times or inspire you to do something you enjoy.

Rework or Rebuild?

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As you may have noticed, I took down Mind the Shadows.  I felt compelled to pull it and… well… decide, I guess, what to do with it.

The truth is that I think it kind of got away from me.  I was more concerned about cranking out words and “action” than with understanding what I wanted for my characters – not to mention, among other things, what my characters wanted for themselves.

It started feeling like doing a job versus just being a story I wanted to tell and being something fun to do.  So, as you ALSO may have noticed, I got sloppy when I did produce words, AND I started producing less often.

I’m at a crossroads for either reworking (my term for doing some editing) the existing story or rebuilding it.  I’ll likely keep the general story line that I started, but I’m not sure if I’ll pare it down to being part of Marek’s background, or if I’ll rework and streamline it, then continue on from there.

I would like to get a bit more “future history” in there for a better description of the setting.  I felt like that was lacking.

I’m still learning how to do all this, so I don’t know what you should expect.

I wouldn’t mind some advice.

I did get one great piece of advice. It was part of what prompted me to start down this path for Mind the Shadows.  Dirty SciFi Buddha posted one of his musings that really got my attention.  Here is the link to the post.  He’s right, too.  I was cranking out “stuff”, but I wasn’t paying attention to my characters.  I wasn’t letting them become the living breathing people they need to be.

Anyway, let me know your thoughts about Mind the Shadows.  Let me know your thoughts about anything.  As always thanks for your comments and feedback.

Moving into ’17

The holidays were good to me.  I got to visit family and hang out with my best friend.  I had a lot of fun.  And again, there was minimal drama like at Thanksgiving.  I can say that I am as grateful for that as the rest.  It was a very enjoyable break.

I’ve gotten some laughs from the many 2016 memes citing how fu€kt up 2016 was.  I mean what can you do but laugh… or go stark raving mad like much of society does over some of the stupidest shit.  I find myself shaking my head more and more often…

Don’t get me wrong.  2016 had some negative events like the deaths of some well-known folks.  I guess I’m at the age where the ones dying are people with whom I have some sort of connection.  These were people that were known and popular in my time.  I suppose that will be the case more and more as I get older.  Still, even though it was a shame to lose some of these folks (pretty good artists and actors), I will accept that it was their time.  Maybe their passing will incite some positive changes in our world.

Then there was the election here in the U.S. of A.  What a freakin’ circus.  And I am still trying to comprehend the level of shitheadedness (I made this one up <grin>) that people have shown over this fiasco.  I’m not here to get political.  I just want to point out the complete lack of maturity and abundance of stupidity that surfaced during the campaign and election.

My only thoughts on Trump being president are: 1. I expect some changes. 2. I hope some of those changes are for the better.  Putting that guy in office is definitely a curve-ball.  I am considering this another one of those 2016 winds of change.

So, 2017 is here.  It sure ain’t like the Back to the Future movies described (that was 2015, by the way).  We don’t have hover cars and controlled weather.  I haven’t seen a Mr. Fusion on a shelf at Target.  I do sometimes think, though, if the world was less focused on money and beating each other over the head for our differences, and more focused on advancing technology and solving problems like pollution, hunger and diseases, we might actually have stuff like that by now – or, at least, be much closer.  Maybe all the 2016 craziness will be a catalyst for bigger better things in ’17.

Happy New Year?

Wow, It’s been over a year O_O

I have been hacking at this bloggy thing for over a year now.  I started it in October of last year.  I’m impressed (sometimes I do that… impress myself).  Before Mind Racing 9, I don’t think I stuck with something like this for more than a few months.  I’d lose interest or find some other distraction.  I don’t know.  I’d just quit.  Don’t get me wrong.  I have not been super regular with my posting here, but the fact that I keep coming back around to it every so often kind of surprises me.  I’ve managed to post at least once every month.  It makes me happy with… well… me <grin>.

Thanks for reading.  Thanks to those that have reacted and/or responded in some way to my posts and my crappy little story.  I can argue with some degree of validity that I don’t necessarily need an audience to crank out a few words.  I do it because I like it.  BUT… it helps and motivates when I know that others are reading what I’ve written.  I like to stir thoughts and/or feelings in someone with my writing… even if it is nausea 😛  So, serisously… thanks.

I think I’ll keep it going.  You’ve been warned 😉

 

Thanks, Thanksgiving and Honey

Yeah, I am thankful for some stuff.  The trip Home to visit for Thanksgiving is one of those things.  I got to see my daughter for a bit.  The family gatherings were pleasant.  They came with minimal drama – something for which I am very thankful.  I got to hang out with my best friend.  That’s always something I appreciate.

Another thing that I am happy to mention is 20 years of marriage.  It’s not our anniversary just yet (couple of weeks), but it is something for which I am thankful for sure.  I look back over 20 years and can’t think of anything I would change.  I can’t come up with any time that I wasn’t “happily married”.  Don’t get me wrong… it has not all been peaches and cream (who says that anymore).  But it has been worth every moment of these 20 years.  My wife is my other best friend.  We get along well and usually have a pretty good time together.  Raising our daughter together has been a great experience.  Just living day to day  married to her has been pretty damn good.  Sometimes it’s been an “adventure”.  It would be boring, though, if there weren’t some bumps and curves in the road.

I don’t feel like I have achieved any kind of milestone with a 20th anniversary.  I guess I don’t see it that way.  I was not setting a goal back then.  I wasn’t trying for some grand achievement.  I just decided that I wanted to spend my life with her.  I fell in love.  It’s that simple.  I guess if I didn’t feel a little proud, I wouldn’t be posting it here, but I haven’t chosen my life with her based on a challenge or desire to “win” something.    The bottom line is that I am very thankful for making that decision so many years ago.  I will continue to be thankful for this life with her.  Thanks, honey, for making that decision back then, too.