Yeah, I am thankful for some stuff. The trip Home to visit for Thanksgiving is one of those things. I got to see my daughter for a bit. The family gatherings were pleasant. They came with minimal drama – something for which I am very thankful. I got to hang out with my best friend. That’s always something I appreciate.
Another thing that I am happy to mention is 20 years of marriage. It’s not our anniversary just yet (couple of weeks), but it is something for which I am thankful for sure. I look back over 20 years and can’t think of anything I would change. I can’t come up with any time that I wasn’t “happily married”. Don’t get me wrong… it has not all been peaches and cream (who says that anymore). But it has been worth every moment of these 20 years. My wife is my other best friend. We get along well and usually have a pretty good time together. Raising our daughter together has been a great experience. Just living day to day married to her has been pretty damn good. Sometimes it’s been an “adventure”. It would be boring, though, if there weren’t some bumps and curves in the road.
I don’t feel like I have achieved any kind of milestone with a 20th anniversary. I guess I don’t see it that way. I was not setting a goal back then. I wasn’t trying for some grand achievement. I just decided that I wanted to spend my life with her. I fell in love. It’s that simple. I guess if I didn’t feel a little proud, I wouldn’t be posting it here, but I haven’t chosen my life with her based on a challenge or desire to “win” something. The bottom line is that I am very thankful for making that decision so many years ago. I will continue to be thankful for this life with her. Thanks, honey, for making that decision back then, too.
So, I just re-read
the chapter 8 post for Mind the Shadows.
I’ve done better… way better. I usually don’t make those kinds of mistakes in my writing. Missing a word or two, grammar problems… wtf? I know I’m amateur, but damn. Even I should do better than that, especially if I’m going to “publish” what I write. I have done better than that. I need to do better than that. Sorry to those that have read it. I’ll definitely try to do better.
I think Mind the Shadows might need some changes… maybe an overhaul… an enema? I’m not sure what specifically is missing, but I think I lost interest because of some sort of self-imposed “barrier” I could not figure out how to get past. I know it’s first person, and describing what Marek is/was feeling and how he sees/saw things is a good thing. BUT… I’m wondering if I’ve written too much of that “good thing”. I need some more action in it.
Please, tell me if you think I’m right.
I don’t think I’ll change from writing as Marek (1st person) just yet, but I might get a little more “shallow”(???). I’ll try to create more action and story progression versus interaction and, what I think is, character development. Remember… AMATEUR. This is where I could use some help/feedback. Ask questions. Tell me it sucks, if you want, but tell me why you think it sucks. I would actually appreciate that.
I just looked at the date of my last post. I’m having a hard time wrapping my around the fact that it’s been that long… over a month. I was trying not to let that happen… sorry.
I’m not sure why, exactly, I have let this blog thingy go cold. I’ve got no good excuse. I know I’ve been doing some other stuff, but not so much that I’ve HAD to neglect this. I dunno <sigh>…
Got to visit my daughter a couple of weeks ago. It was good to see her. She’s doing well. College life seems to suit her. It makes me proud. Good going, kid.
I ran the 24 Hours of Le Mans last weekend. Well… I ran 21 hours of it anyway, with Ridin’ Shotgun Motorsports on iRacing. I had a lot of fun in spite of not being able to complete it. We found a software bug, of all things. One of my teammates had to pit for some repairs. He gets in the pit box and the repair timer doesn’t start counting down. The car won’t restart. There was nothing we could do to get things going again, and we know that’s not how iRacing handles that. Needless to say, we were disappointed, but we still had a ton of fun. The endurance races are something in my hobby I probably enjoy the most. I can’t wait until the Daytona 24 🙂
I haven’t been writing at all. So, it isn’t just the blog that I’ve neglected. I guess I got a little burnt? I really don’t know. I do know that I would sit down in here, and it just wouldn’t happen. I would get focused on something else. In some cases, I never even came into my office. I was spending time with the wife, watching TV and just doing other shit.
Anyway, I’ll cut it off here. I’ll end things with a sorry for leaving ya hanging (if you were actually). I think I’m getting some motivation to start being a terror to the English language again… you’ve been warned 😛