The ice cracks. No place to run
Melted just enough
Oh, curse the sun
A downward plunge into stabbing cold
Not brave… not bold
A sharp inhale for a desperate breath
Taste liquid death
Eyes wide shut against a flash of life
Which way is up
Why not a knife
As tearing freeze begins to fade
Shame replaces fear
One less sign obeyed
Warmth replaces a need for breath
Fade to black
Walk again with the angel of Death
So, I just read this post by @millyschmidt where she talks about dealing with being rejected by publishers. She writes about a pretty good process for getting through rejections – something that writers live with a lot.
So, anyway, I was triggered for some reason to write this…
The ultimate sword is forged when the hammer strikes the perfect spot on the cooling blade at the perfect moment in time. Then, and only then, can this blade transcend from an ordinary tool of utility and general purpose to the artifact that can slay the beast; the beast that is working to crush you and deny you the chance to live as you see fit. A desire to create such a weapon and the will to enter the forge suggests that you may have the recipe. The real question at this point, however, is not whether you can forge the sword. Instead, the question is do you have the drive to live for the opportunity to do so? Only those that are willing to embrace the passion for just being in the forge will be given even the slightest chance for creating that ultimate sword.
I just noticed that I have 20 followers. At first, I was like, “Very cool!” Then I noticed something else. I saw that one of the followers is me. I don’t remember following myself, but okay… <shrugs>. Then I noticed that 2 of my followers are the same person. So, I guess, technically I have 18 followers. I can’t count myself as a follower because I’m stuck with me O_O
It still feels good. So, thank you, followers. I hope you’re enjoying some portion of the stuff that gets out of my head and onto this electronic medium. Feel free to let me know what you think of any of it. I’m eager to learn what I could do better, and/or hear that someone likes what I do here… or a different opinion, some advice or random passing thought. 😉
Until next time…
It’s both a good and bad thing that I am approaching the last week of my current source of employment. It’s good because I have chosen to challenge myself and strive for a new career path that should take me into a continually lucrative future. I am concerned that my current trade has peaked, and there might come a time – as I age – where being so hands-on will just not be possible. I am hopeful that project management will be something that I have some starting skill at and that I will enjoy not just being a piece on the game board, but the guy that helps get the pieces into play to “win the games”.
Project management is something that I have observed for a major portion of my time as an engineering technician. My interaction with project managers has been been little more than get the task, complete the task and report back for the next task in the time allowed. I have formed opinions about what a project manager should be in that time, with those types of interactions. I am rather eager to find out if I am even remotely accurate. So, all good things I think. I like to learn. This should be an education.
The bad thing is that my usefulness where I am still has waned to effectively nothing. For me, it is a difficult thing to sit idle and pass time that does not have, at least, some productive value. Plus, I’m just bored. I appreciate, however, the fact that my employer is willing to keep me on until the prescribed time in spite of being idle. I’m hoping that this will help pass the time in a more productive manner 😉
The holidays went pretty well; had some good visits with friends and family; enjoyed the gifts from Christmas. Then December 26th happened. Type A flu struck a big chunk of the family. That sucked. We were laid up for most of the holiday vacation. We’re still recovering from it.
Then I’ve decided to change careers. I’m getting into project management. It was a tough decision when the choice was presented to me. So, after giving notice to my current employer, I’m anxiously awaiting the set time to start my new career. It’s a little scary, but I’m hopeful and looking forward to it. Needless to say, it’s been on my mind quite a bit.
On top of that stuff, I’ve been mentally prodding myself to get back into my hobby that is iRacing. I have been on-and-off with it for about 2 years now. It’s not that I haven’t jumped in my rig and raced periodically. I have even been running in the Majors League during this time, too, but I have not been heavily involved like I used to be. I do miss the way it used to be, but I am also a little apprehensive about jumping back into it with both feet. I guess those waters will be tested tomorrow night with the first Lone Star Sports Car Series race in around 2 years. Gonna knock the dust off the McLaren MP4-12c.
I’m going to have to get better at time management, too. I want to put time in to my online racing, but I also want to keep in touch with my best friend, AND I want to keep writing. These things have to be squeezed in around work and time with my family (the most important piece of this puzzle I call my life). Wish me luck…
So, how the hell do you train your muse? I’ve been suffering from writer’s block, lack of motivation, no inspiration… call it whatever. It sucks.
Can you train your muse? I’m not sure. I thought it might have been possible. But now I just don’t know.
My desire to write seems to be in my daily batch of wants and needs, but the fuel I need to do it, lately, is lacking at best – even non-existent at times.
I can’t deny having some recent distractions, but I don’t think they are the cause any kind of major block. It’s like my muse just took a giant dump and bailed
Trying to figure it out…
Is everybody aware of this upcoming vote about the Net Neutrality laws? I hope so. This is some scary stuff. Do you know what Net Neutrality is? In a nutshell, it means that the internet service provider (ISP) that you pay to have internet access is required by law to let you use the bandwidth you pay for in any way you see fit. If you have 50-megabit bandwidth, with the current laws in place, you can use that 50 megabits to access whatever content you want – YouTube, Netflix, Facebook… porn… whatever.
If these laws get repealed, your ISP will now get to decide how much, if any, of that bandwidth you’re paying for you get to use for certain things. Again, in a nutshell, it means that your ISP can limit access to certain content as they see fit. For example, the ISP could decide not to allow enough bandwidth to stream HD Netflix, or not stream it at all. Then it’s likely that they will be happy to start charging you more to get better access to certain content, AND they will be legal to do this. No more unrestricted access.
Watch the video I’ve linked below. It’s got a ton of good information. It’s worth watching for good information. Finally, voice your opinion. I hope you’re for keeping Net Neutrality. I want to be able to use my internet bandwidth in any way I see fit, especially being able to blog here on WordPress. I bet you do, too.
Net Neutrality Video Link